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Trust. Saturday, November 21, 2009 I am going to force myself to come back to blogger but the laziness can't be killed will update more often I hope. - Trust; what is that, if even the dictionary is lying about it. Hellz. Many things happened last night. i think this wouldn’t be the last time i burn the midnight old to cry over what you lied about. You don’t deserve a stupid woman like me, perhaps..? Chalet Friday, November 13, 2009 Was away at Sihao's chalet the first night, 11 Nov. Things were somehow screwed up therefore Baby and I left first, but we kept silence throughout the journey. Stayed over the past two days things. Baby brought me to Sembawang Shopping Ctr nearby coffee house for Roti Prata because I was craving. Sweet. Walked over to Celeste's block and she came down sat for awhile then went to Hilltop to catch up with XiaoQuan, Junlong and Dawn came up too but they left in awhile. Left with Zihui, Wenhui, XiaoQuan but went on seperate ways. 406 for supper with Baby and Sapi. Had Wanton Mee there then headed back home. Played cards with Baby because we just couldn't get to sleep. Hit off to bed only at 5.30am it was then we realised time passes that quickly. Woke up 2.30pm in the afternoon bathe and left for home. Bye. Restart. Tuesday, November 10, 2009 Reluctantly make myself to restart this blog deleted all archives. No need to search high and low because it is all destoryed. I am now posting short rant on onsugar if you lost my link it is posted at the bottom of the page. But, but, I am currently posting on tumblr! :) 4'NEL. Saturday, November 7, 2009 Dear you, Times haven't been easy all this while. On the 4th this month we broke off. I thought saying things mean, you just leave and don't come back, I wanted to make you hate me at the point of time so that I can forget you quick. I didn't want you to care. But you said, you wanted me to stay over and asked me to wait for you just under you block. You didn't turn up. It's okay. I thought this is the end, I wanted to leave but I suddenly thought of you, I dial your number. Again, you asked me to meet you this time somewhere else. At that point of time, honestly I was in doubt. I didn't know if I should. But I still proceed. Met you outside Crystal, alone. When I was on the way down, I told myself, I've to be strong. I promised you when I was at your place. I didn't know what were you up to. But the reason I didn't react to your words is because, you made me felt so neutral the day before. Those mean words you shouted through the phone, I lost myself totally, I didn't utter a word, I kept silent. Because, I was so scared of you. Until you told me, "我今天做工时, 想了很多, 想我不能没有你". You thought I'd tear. But I was too neutral at that time, all I thought was; If you love me, why left me waiting alone. If you love me, why would you say things that are so hurting. But I swear before this incident took place, I didn't expect to play such a important role in your life. One, that could actually make you tear from night to day for me. I am sorry for the disappointment I gave you all these years. I, thank you for all the love you gave me these years. Ever since that day, 4th - 6th Nov living with you, everytime I thought of the things you told me, I am the one you dote on most, I am the one you ever spent so much time on, I am the one you did so much for. Everytime I think 'bout it, tears flow down. I don't know, if you knew how much I loved you. Every morning, when I wake up the first thing I told myself is, I used to hope time could go back, so I undo the wrong things that I've done but I know that it's no such thing in reality therefore, I learnt from everything, every mistake I did, I grow with them, I remember but never repeat them. Although I cannot undo hurts and disappoint I once gave. But I can do it vice-versa in future. I must cherish you, cherish every chance you give to me. Again, if it's not that incident I wouldn't know you love me so much. Heart4u. Sincerely yours, Pearlyn on 7th Nov 2009. | |